4/18/25

I’ve spent much of my childhood feeling lonely. No one in my social circles could relate to what I have been through, and I struggled silently for a long time. There was a lot of unaddressed and unregulated turmoil from my childhood, often leaving me to feel isolated and scared.

How could a loving Father allow a child to endure so much pain?

My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?

The moment Jesus was tacked on the cross, He took on every emotion mankind has experienced and will continue to earth side. He KNOWS the pain I have endured. He also has endured pain, due to being in flesh, and it was fully and thoroughly felt superficially down to the very intricate parts of our anatomy. From the epidermis of the skin all the way through the meninges of the spinal cord. Every single part of the body was a burden to Him, full of pain and agony.

While He was on the cross, He took on the pain of every disease, addiction, suicidal ideation, and feelings of guilt/shame/hopelessness. Only He knows truly what I have experienced because He bore it as well on the cross.

I no longer feel so alone earth side, because Jesus was willing to fulfill scripture, to die so that you and I may live. And I am thankful.

Today I mourn, as the rest of creation does, but this Sunday we shall all praise. It is finished, but the best is yet to come.